I thought I’d share this badass photo I took when I went to San Francisco with my best friend during spring break ’08.
Pretty cool huh? It’s one of my favs.
It’s raining outside and to be honest, it has been a gloomy day. I’m in my mid-20′s and I feel like I have had a lot on my mind lately. I don’t party anymore. Gah…yah I know. Lame thing to say when there are thousands of more horrible issues going on in this world. I get it, believe me but hey, I’m me. My social life has sort of dwindled and I have a lot of friends that are on the fast track and sometimes I feel like I’m on the slow track. I have got a full time job that I love but sometimes love too much, a loving bf of 5+ years who happens to be a very busy entrpreneur (tying the knot one day soon?? hmmmm), planning for my parents retirement — which can be depressing sometimes, missing my only sibling, my big brother and his wife and my nephew who are living in Austria which I barely get to see—- wondering if I’ll ever get to be an Auntie, barely any family living here in Dallas….and more personal issues I care to not talk about in this blog……..I just feel like I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately and to be quite honest, I am enjoying it. I am definitely trying to listen to what the silence is telling me. God are you there? It’s me Chiara.
So much is going around me sometimes I can’t keep up. I have always been one of those people that wants to be there for everyone and everything, I sometimes forget about taking care of myself. I’ve got people around me that are going through life’s twists and turns, the good and the bad — I can’t help that I want to be apart of it. Engaged. Pregnant. In Love. Not In Love. Scared. Confused. Faithful. Faithless. Making Money. Money Hungry. Whatever. Can I just take a breather and get away from this world?
I will one day walk this Great big Wall of China. One day…
So I was talking with my cousin Marie who lives in Austin and she and I always have the best, deep talks. And she told me something I probably will carry with myself for the rest of my life. She said, “I’m not going to apologize for being me.” Well said. This 2012, let me reiterate, I am going to do things for me.